For this final documentary project of the semester, I have chosen to create a documentary that is characterized by a mix of the observational and poetic modes of documentary filmmaking with a “thick description” photo essay. The observational mode of documentary filmmaking is characterized by an emphasis on “direct engagement with the everyday life of subjects as observed by an unobtrusive camera” (Nichols 31). The poetic mode of documentary filmmaking “emphasizes visual associations, tonal or rhythmic qualities, descriptive passages, and formal organization (Nichols 31). And lastly, a “thick description” photo essay involves deep analysis and description through commentary and visual images. Upon first thought because the poetic mode lacks the more direct, personal engagement with the subject that is involved with observational filmmaking, the two modes seem at odds with each other. However, through this set of images I argue the two can pleasantly coexist. I think this is possible because the poetic meaning of the work has been applied in post-production–meaning that I shot with an observational eye and then found ways to associate the images with one another and add meaning through the use of diptychs.
Since this is my last semester at St. Edward’s, I decided what better way to end the semester than with a group of images that I can look back at and remember my life as a student. Over the past three weeks, I have basically lived in study/work mode–I wanted to finish my schooling with my best efforts, going out with a bang in a way. So, in order to document my last few days, I brought my camera and a notepad everywhere I went that was involved with school and or homework. I wanted to always be prepared should an interesting scene or occasion take place. By carrying it around all the time, my camera became an extension of myself. I wanted to unobtrusively observe the state of life happening around me–in just a few days, I will be finished with life as an undergrad and never will I return. Also explained by Nichols, one of the goals of the observational mode is to allow the audience to “realize that the filmmaker exists on the same plane of human existence as his or her social actors” (157). By including images of not only my work space but also communal working environments, I am showing myself to exist in the same realm as the other students pictured in this set of images. I purposefully did not include any images of myself so that it the work as a whole would have greater context and application to the other students in similar positions. This effort relates the film back to the poetic mode in that any sense of “extended engagement between the filmmaker and subject is frequently modest, at best” (Nichols 156).
This collection of images depicts not only my study habits, but also the atmosphere of school during final’s week, artifacts of student life, and little tangential scenes that brought joy or relief to me during this incredibly stressful time period. (For further explanation of images, refer to captions in gallery.)* I wanted to capture the quirky personality of St. Edward’s, this amazing place, that has made me feel so accepted and included for the past four years. Rather than leaving each image to stand alone, I chose to create a series of diptychs in which the two images placed together are somehow associated. Some associations between images are purely aesthetic while others are more related according to time, space, or subject matter.
One of the things I kept in mind while working on the assignment is the ability of the essay film (or photo essay) to freely flow fiction and nonfiction. Now that school is coming to an end, the original truths found in the images seem to fade in a way. As described by Tracy in “The essay film”, “loss is the primary motor of the modern essay film: loss of belief in the image’s ability to faithfully reflect reality; loss of faith in the cinema’s ability to capture life as it is lived; loss of illusions about cinema’s ‘purity’, its autonomy from the other arts or, for that matter, the world” (Tracy). I find the truth represented in images to be usually subjective and contextual. These images refer to a certain time and place in my life that will no longer exist come Saturday, May 10. They were shot with a specific intention of capturing the essence of the ending to my student life. Of course, the images will always be real artifacts of a previous state, but their meaning and relevance become slightly immaterial as I move into a new phase of life. The truth exists in these photos as I am a student, they are representations of everything I saw, felt, and had to complete in order to graduate.
I have not been able to successfully upload the images into a gallery on this site, so I have created a Facebook album featuring them–it should be public. Please email me if you cannot get access: oswales@gmail.com.
* detailed captions soon to come once the upload is cleared