Working on the first project, i don’t think I’ve ever been this frustrated. I have never been behind in a class, and i feel so inadequate around these amazing artists. This white piece of paper we have to paint HATES me. Its my fault, i shouldn’t have folded it in the weirdest way possible. Even looking at it in real life looks really awful. All these things we have to add to the paint are so new to me, i have never played with oil paint before. But at least i spent an hour on an underpainting only to start all over again.